26, 08, 2015
Sorry, but I have to interrupt this blog with real life.
I’m usually a very optimistic person but today I just can’t.
After hearing news of unfortunate events in my community, waking up to police tape around the gas station near my house, watching the news of WDBJ 7 journalist deaths, the death of 9-year-old Jamyla Bolden, mixed with what has already been weighing on my mind about police brutality, sex trafficking, Christian persecution and everything else, today is just one of those days.
It’s interesting, but most times when I feel like this can I pray and rest in the peace of God knowing that though everything seems to be incomplete chaos He’s still in control. If I can be honest though, today that’s not working. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that I don’t believe that God is real or that He’s in control; I have tons of scriptures and life experiences to prove the opposite. What I am saying is that today isn’t the same. I can’t bring myself to pray and I have questions. Well, more like one question: why?
Why? Why all of these horrible acts of violence? Why hatred? Why pain? Why evil? It is just all too much. And I can’t even begin to imagine what it is like for the families right now. No amount of sweet words or well wishes can bring their loved ones back or reverse the tragedies that will forever change their lives.
With each event the trauma, hurt and pain begins to etch itself deeper into the heart of our society and we don’t know what to do with it. It is all so discouraging. We hashtag names, Black Lives Matter, protest, give money, pray and people are still out here losing their minds. And I don’t know what to say or do. Right now I just want to know “why” and when will it end.
Though it is hard for me to fully grasp today, I know that only Christ holds the answers. Most importantly only He provides the peace, comfort and security we need. So if you’re having a day like mine or generally just don’t believe this “God-thing” is really, especially with all the evil at play, I understand how you are feeling. Continue to hold on and/or give Christ a chance, let Him be your source of hope.
Now I’m going to take that and go watch some 90s sitcoms on Youtube to get my laugh on.
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