04, 04, 2017
On April 1, 2015, I nervously hit the publish button on my blog on my blog and decided to just go for it.
Ever since I was in high school I’ve been obsessed with reading blogs. I discovered blogs right when I discovered that I could wear my hair in its natural state (different story for a different time but let me know in the comments if you want to hear it). I was watching a video and the YouTuber made a reference to a website, CurlyNikki.com to be exact, and I realized that people were sharing their life and experiences online. Now I don’t know why I gravitated towards the idea of reading someone experiences, but I did. Maybe because I always found it easier to communicate through writing than speaking.
In 2010, Towards the end of my freshman year of college I thought to myself “you spend so much time reading these things, why don’t you start your own?” And thus began my journey of starting and quitting. First, I started a natural hair blog and maintained that for all of two posts before getting scared (of what I couldn’t tell you) and deleting the whole site off Blogger. Then I started a lifestyle blog but couldn’t think of a good name or what to post. Throughout college, I started several fashion, hair, lifestyle and inspirational blogs that I was too scared to share or quit because I thought it was too hard to grow. Despite the back and forth, I’ve always felt inside that this was something that I was supposed to do. It’s weird but I felt (and still do feel) like God called me to do this. At the time, blogging wasn’t the industry or career that it is today. It was weird to think my purpose was to do something that most people didn’t understand.
So at the end of 2014, I decided that it was time to go for it… again. This time I told myself that I could not quit. Well actually, I made a deal with myself. If I committed one year to this site — putting in all of my time, effort and money — and nothing comes of it, then I could quit. I never quite defined what “nothing” was, but that was the deal. During the course of my first year, I learned that I really enjoyed sharing my experiences, connecting with people online and inspiring people and being inspired by others. I got over my fear of “putting myself out there” and stepping out of my comfort zone. By the end of my first year of blogging, I did not want to stop. I wanted to keep growing personally and professionally. With each new year, I want to stretch myself so that I can continue to grow. Fast forward to April 1, 2017, I celebrated two years by hosting my first event.
Moral of the story: Go for it. Don’t let fear or even difficulty keep you from doing something that you know you were made to do. You’ll grow, you’ll learn and you’ll do better each day; just go for it! Sometimes you’ll have a desire to do something that you won’t understand or others don’t understand. That’s okay. Take the risk and see where it leads you. Don’t let fear or ignorance discourage you. Trust that God will lead you.